I hate birthdays! Yep...I said it. I. Hate. Birthdays.
Maybe hate is a strong word but I greatly, greatly, GREATLY dislike birthdays. I dislike the anticipated expectations a person has. I hate stressing over if I've given the perfect gift or if I've hinted enough at what I think the perfect gift for me would be.
I dislike feeling like I've failed when I didn't give the right gift or feeling like my spouse might feel that he didn't give me the right gift.
If you've taken StrengthsFinders then you'll understand better when I tell you one of my top strengths is Individualization. It is important for me to make someone feel special and unique and I prefer that to be reciprocated back. It's just how I function. So gifts are very difficult for me!
Therefore, birthdays are hard for me. Whether it's my birthday or someone else's. This also is the same with Christmas, anniversaries, Valentine's day...
I hate the expected expectations I put on myself and others yet I have a hard time stopping it. I wish I could. Really!
So today, in my ideal world, I would rather my birthday just go unnoticed. Less awkwardness. Less expectations. Less stress. I would rather it just be another boring day.
But instead I suck it up. I say yes to a lunch invitation. And I humor the family for dinner out...but more importantly because I know there's peanut butter pie waiting for me afterwards. And I smile and say thank you as I open each gift because I know everyone loves me and means the best....even if I know the bag to carry my dog in will never be used or the wooden bowl will probably collect dust for the next ten years. Thanks family! And happy birthday to me. What a crazy, adventurous year I have ahead of me!
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